Feeling less in our society is seen as a strength. We are encouraged to wear emotions such as joy and contentment artificially, while suppressing emotions like anger and sadness. It’s easier to stay disconnected to why we think and feel, and so many do. I tried to think and feel less to fit in but couldn’t.
I’m part of the 1.6 percent of U.S. adults with Borderline Personality Disorder. BPD is a condition characterized by difficulties in regulating emotion. Everything I felt was so intense, all I wanted was to unzip from my skin at the end of each day. BPD is a scary, lonely place.
Now in remission, after five years of intense treatment, I have discovered that BPD has also given me the ability to hear and help heal people who struggle. My demons, it turns out, are also my angels. Can You Feel This is a shelter on your journey to discovering not just who you are, but what you are.
The only way to get out of yourself is to get inside yourself. Here you’re safe to ask the questions you think may crucify you, but I believe they will also save you.
Can You Feel This is to encourage you to live deliberately with your joy and contentment, and not fear your sadness and anger. Stay connected to what you think and feel–it’s who you are.